Today marks the day I began to work as manager of the shop in Asheville that changed my life for the better. It's a "metaphysical book shop" as I describe it to some, a "witch shop" to others, and I love the reaction when I say the latter. It's a community center, it's a place of respite, and it's a place I am happy and proud to work, with a vision of a community that stretches far beyond the physical location on Merrimon Avenue.
I first walked into the shop when I moved to Asheville a few years ago. Excited to find something so interesting so close to where I lived, and geographically challenged, I got in my car only to find I could easily walk there. It is literally across the street and down a bit, and there I was. I walked through the door and realized it was a special place, more of a community center than mere store or shop. Soon I spent lots of time there, attending workshops, and buying so many things that I joked HR would set up a direct deposit of my paycheck straight to the store.
At the time, I worked in sales, but the heartbeat of a different life kept calling to me. Through vision board and manifesting, I made one of my dreams come true, and was able to present a paper on Sylvia Plath in Belfast, and spend a few weeks there. I knew I would not be able to return to the life I led once I did this. I took a deep breath, a leap of faith, and jumped. I resigned, and planned to cobble together some part-time jobs while I figured out what I wanted to be when I grew up (a familiar scenario).
Sometime during that magical month of November or a bit before, Lisa Anderson, the shop owner casually mentioned "I wish you would come work at the shop." I literally caught my breath, because it seemed like a dream job, and had never even thought to look there for work. Long story short, I did, and it has been one of the best jobs I have ever had. I owe Lisa so much, and she is the best employer/friend/life coach I have ever known. You should all be so lucky to have a Lisa Anderson in your life.
What a year it has been! I walked through the door of the shop on December 5, 2017 as manager and began a year of so many things that it seems like much, much longer. I am proud of what's been accomplished: so many amazing events and workshops, customers from all over the country, vending at two wonderful venues (Mystic South and Goblin Market), gathering local artists and friends who make lovely items that literally fly off the shelves because they are unique and useful. We have a family of staff members I'm so happy to work with, as they bring their unique talents to the shop to create an experience that goes beyond mere shopping. And when my youngest was diagnosed with lymphoma, the shop rallied around us and created an Evan fund, to help with expenses as he deals with the effects of treatment. There is a word beyond thankful, and it resonates with me daily.
My favorite part of each day? When the door opens, the bell jingles, and a customer stands there, breathing deeply, followed by that happy sigh. They know this is a special place, a respite, an experience. So much to look at, so many items that help, so many beautiful objects to enhance their life. It's not just teas, candles, herbs and incense. It's a place to just be. To have a cup of tea, grab a shopping basket, and peruse all the multitudes of treasures we have. It may seem that I took a drastic left turn in doing this for work, but it really is part of a common theme in my life: to help others, to try and make the world a better place through my daily job. I am happy to say I followed a dream, and am living it. Here's to the first year of what I hope is many at Asheville Raven & Crone. Come visit!
Wednesday, December 5, 2018
Friday, November 9, 2018
A Visit to CancerLand
First of all, thanks to all for the responses, messages and more from so many people regarding my youngest's diagnosis. You are all with me in spirit and I feel the love daily. So does he. It is a surreal and comforting experience, for which we are both very appreciative.
I've realized this whole journey with him is similar to going to another country. We have our passports stamped with CancerLand. It was always out there, and I never really visited before, except for a brief foray with my brother-in-law. He was diagnosed with cancer when he was young, and being his sister-in-law, although I loved him fiercely, put me in a slightly removed state, as I wasn't "immediate family". Hell yes I was, but that is a different story.
So going through this with my own child is a whole different world. This is visceral. Yes, he is an adult and I don't have to be "the mom" when he makes decisions or they deal with his treatment plan. I am present, and I give opinions and I guard him just as fiercely as ever, but this is really his life. Yet, when I see him sleep, and gaze upon his shorn, beautifully shaped skull, I am always and forever his mommy and time and age doesn't matter.
I realized we were in CancerLand when he was going through his second chemo treatment the other day. The first one was in the hospital, and a different experience, a different set of emotions. This time it was a little more relaxed, as we knew the drill. He was dressed in his comfy shark pajama bottoms and flannel shirt, and the nurses used familiar language with all the chemo treatment they were about to put into his veins. He doesn't have a port because of his blood clots and his arms are scarred from the many, many times they put IVs into him these last few months. He will recover, but my heart will not. It hurts every time they stick something into him. I have to restrain myself from launching at them because no one will harm my child, but I have to let them, because it's medical.
The difference in CancerLand is that we have different language. We talk endlessly about bodily functions, and medicine is everywhere, and everything is monitored. How much does he eat, how much water does he drink, you have to keep up with protein. I struggle to keep the outside world present, and talk about normal things, but then it goes back to the CancerLand Language. It's okay, people are nice there. Whew, are they nice. The nurses talk to me like we are best friends, and they gaze on him fondly as if he is their child. I can see why, as most of the inhabitants of CancerLand are elderly. Yet there are other inhabitants there. The pharmacist, who literally bounces on by, who I learn had cancer when she was pregnant and is now in remission with a soccer playing 13 year old daughter. The scheduler who had an 11 year old with cancer, and that 11 year old is now in college. Time is like a rubber band with CancerLand stories. Backward, forward and in the present, all at once.
I sit gazing out the window as the chemicals drip into his veins. I know this is for his health, but this is all foreign to me. Me, who is not on medication, is fairly healthy and only has to deal with a stiff heel and some aches here and there. I know my day is coming, and my youthful health may not remain. That's off in the future, though. For now, I sit there slightly baffled as to how we got into this country of CancerLand. It's fine, they feed us there, and the drinks are usually water. We have to keep hydrated. I am with him on this journey, but I feel like a tour guide who doesn't really know this place very well.
Hours drift into each other, as he goes through each IV bag, four in total. My phone lights up with supportive messages. People so want to help, so I let them know when things like chemo are happening so they can direct their lovely energy towards his healing. I know without a doubt it helps. It all helps. He sleeps while the drugs drip into his arm, and I am relieved he is relaxed enough to do this. I sleep like a log yet never feel rested, so I stumble through each day. All that matters to me is that he sleeps and gets rest.
My phone lights up again. At that moment, a lovely friend in Ireland is lighting a candle for my youngest. The timing is no coincidence. As he tells me, there is no coincidence in faith. And there isn't, is there? Faith keeps us going on this journey, because otherwise there is darkness. That moment helps, as do the many others. All piled on top of each other in a huge glowing mass of love that envelops us both. I never feel alone, because I feel all that loving energy. All the time.
The treatment ends, and we stumble back towards our car and home. I feel a happy thrill because he is walking in and out of the Cancer Center. For many visits, he was in so much pain, he had to be in a wheelchair. I will never take his walking for granted again. Ever.
We go home, oddly refreshed and exhausted at the same time from our visit to CancerLand. Our passports have to be stamped four more times before his journey there ends. I know his journey will end and we may never visit there again. As in most journeys, I focus on the good moments of the visit, not the disasters. This journey was good, but I am glad it is over. Until the next visit in three weeks.
I've realized this whole journey with him is similar to going to another country. We have our passports stamped with CancerLand. It was always out there, and I never really visited before, except for a brief foray with my brother-in-law. He was diagnosed with cancer when he was young, and being his sister-in-law, although I loved him fiercely, put me in a slightly removed state, as I wasn't "immediate family". Hell yes I was, but that is a different story.
So going through this with my own child is a whole different world. This is visceral. Yes, he is an adult and I don't have to be "the mom" when he makes decisions or they deal with his treatment plan. I am present, and I give opinions and I guard him just as fiercely as ever, but this is really his life. Yet, when I see him sleep, and gaze upon his shorn, beautifully shaped skull, I am always and forever his mommy and time and age doesn't matter.
I realized we were in CancerLand when he was going through his second chemo treatment the other day. The first one was in the hospital, and a different experience, a different set of emotions. This time it was a little more relaxed, as we knew the drill. He was dressed in his comfy shark pajama bottoms and flannel shirt, and the nurses used familiar language with all the chemo treatment they were about to put into his veins. He doesn't have a port because of his blood clots and his arms are scarred from the many, many times they put IVs into him these last few months. He will recover, but my heart will not. It hurts every time they stick something into him. I have to restrain myself from launching at them because no one will harm my child, but I have to let them, because it's medical.
The difference in CancerLand is that we have different language. We talk endlessly about bodily functions, and medicine is everywhere, and everything is monitored. How much does he eat, how much water does he drink, you have to keep up with protein. I struggle to keep the outside world present, and talk about normal things, but then it goes back to the CancerLand Language. It's okay, people are nice there. Whew, are they nice. The nurses talk to me like we are best friends, and they gaze on him fondly as if he is their child. I can see why, as most of the inhabitants of CancerLand are elderly. Yet there are other inhabitants there. The pharmacist, who literally bounces on by, who I learn had cancer when she was pregnant and is now in remission with a soccer playing 13 year old daughter. The scheduler who had an 11 year old with cancer, and that 11 year old is now in college. Time is like a rubber band with CancerLand stories. Backward, forward and in the present, all at once.
I sit gazing out the window as the chemicals drip into his veins. I know this is for his health, but this is all foreign to me. Me, who is not on medication, is fairly healthy and only has to deal with a stiff heel and some aches here and there. I know my day is coming, and my youthful health may not remain. That's off in the future, though. For now, I sit there slightly baffled as to how we got into this country of CancerLand. It's fine, they feed us there, and the drinks are usually water. We have to keep hydrated. I am with him on this journey, but I feel like a tour guide who doesn't really know this place very well.
Hours drift into each other, as he goes through each IV bag, four in total. My phone lights up with supportive messages. People so want to help, so I let them know when things like chemo are happening so they can direct their lovely energy towards his healing. I know without a doubt it helps. It all helps. He sleeps while the drugs drip into his arm, and I am relieved he is relaxed enough to do this. I sleep like a log yet never feel rested, so I stumble through each day. All that matters to me is that he sleeps and gets rest.
My phone lights up again. At that moment, a lovely friend in Ireland is lighting a candle for my youngest. The timing is no coincidence. As he tells me, there is no coincidence in faith. And there isn't, is there? Faith keeps us going on this journey, because otherwise there is darkness. That moment helps, as do the many others. All piled on top of each other in a huge glowing mass of love that envelops us both. I never feel alone, because I feel all that loving energy. All the time.
The treatment ends, and we stumble back towards our car and home. I feel a happy thrill because he is walking in and out of the Cancer Center. For many visits, he was in so much pain, he had to be in a wheelchair. I will never take his walking for granted again. Ever.
We go home, oddly refreshed and exhausted at the same time from our visit to CancerLand. Our passports have to be stamped four more times before his journey there ends. I know his journey will end and we may never visit there again. As in most journeys, I focus on the good moments of the visit, not the disasters. This journey was good, but I am glad it is over. Until the next visit in three weeks.
Monday, October 22, 2018
Creating the New
For a while now, I've been getting readings that my life would change dramatically in the Fall of 2018. Silly me, I thought this meant romance, travel or creative endeavors, but instead, it was more life altering than anything I could have imagined: my younger son has been diagnosed with Anaplastic Large Cell Lymphoma. Of course, it's a rare type, as he is anything but usual. Always has been. I joke he is aging in reverse like Benjamin Button (he just turned 25) or that he is doing his best to age me (in the hospital, they thought I was his sister, wife, friend, anything but mom). Humor is how I cope with things, and you will know I am okay because I still crack jokes.
This is a scary journey. It is beyond difficult for me to watch my son in unrelenting pain. Me, who can't even handle a paper cut, and who asked for drugs immediately during childbirth. I have been in awe of the grace in which he has handled this. A diagnosis has given us focus, and has brought into sharp relief all that matters: family, love, friendship and purpose. All else is noise and falls away.
There have been achingly beautiful moments. The quiet of his breathing when he falls asleep. The care with which the nurses handled his many needs. The hugs they gave me in the hallways as fellow moms. My Mom Mode had been hibernating, and has been brought roaring back in full force. I am in Mama Bear mode (the bear is my spirit animal, go figure). Alert for everything, wanting the best for him, keeping an eye on my eldest, ready to stand guard over the two of them until I can't anymore.
I am no martyr. Being a mom is the core of me, and my children are my North, my guiding star. I do what any other mother would do, and know no other way.
I have been overwhelmed with the love and care of friends and chosen family, near and far. I have felt their love envelop us, and repeat their written messages as a mantra when I need distraction. This is a long journey, but so many have it so much worse. I repeat gratitude daily for the little things. It helps.
I can't believe cancer has touched our life. Yet it's also no surprise, as cancer touches everyone, it seems. It is insidious and cold. But it will not win. It.will.not.win.
Magic still enters my life, as it always does. Yesterday, I had my aura photographed. I resisted for a while, joking that it would probably photograph black, so what's the point. Yet something compelled me to do it, and what happened next even surprised the photographer. Most people see red or orange when they can see my aura, yet the photograph revealed a different color: chartreuse. The description for that color was as follows: Energy, sparkle, creator from joy, explosive creator, bubbly energy, The Healer. I felt immediate peace. I am in my Mom Mode, and the healing is what I need to be focused on these next few months. The photographer said she rarely sees that color, but I wasn't very surprised. My child has a rare lymphoma and it's up to me to help him, with whatever healing gifts I have.
So my focus for the next few months is taking care of him and my work. I have canceled all my workshops and events, and am keeping my writing to what I can handle, which is the bare minimum. This forces me to be in the moment, a practice I have been cultivating for years. It helps. The next five minutes, the next few moments, the next few breaths. It makes the rest less scary. Last night, as he was not feeling well, I rubbed my son's back. Underneath I felt a very strong core. My senses have been on hyper alert, so I lingered there to make sure of what I was experiencing. It was there. I know he will overcome this, and his prognosis is good. My life has certainly changed, and definitely not in the way I expected. His life is being transformed, as is mine. The lessons we will both learn will no doubt enhance us in many ways. Our story is one of many who go through similar and worse, and the journey continues. Thank you for reading. And for caring.
This is a scary journey. It is beyond difficult for me to watch my son in unrelenting pain. Me, who can't even handle a paper cut, and who asked for drugs immediately during childbirth. I have been in awe of the grace in which he has handled this. A diagnosis has given us focus, and has brought into sharp relief all that matters: family, love, friendship and purpose. All else is noise and falls away.
There have been achingly beautiful moments. The quiet of his breathing when he falls asleep. The care with which the nurses handled his many needs. The hugs they gave me in the hallways as fellow moms. My Mom Mode had been hibernating, and has been brought roaring back in full force. I am in Mama Bear mode (the bear is my spirit animal, go figure). Alert for everything, wanting the best for him, keeping an eye on my eldest, ready to stand guard over the two of them until I can't anymore.
I am no martyr. Being a mom is the core of me, and my children are my North, my guiding star. I do what any other mother would do, and know no other way.
I have been overwhelmed with the love and care of friends and chosen family, near and far. I have felt their love envelop us, and repeat their written messages as a mantra when I need distraction. This is a long journey, but so many have it so much worse. I repeat gratitude daily for the little things. It helps.
I can't believe cancer has touched our life. Yet it's also no surprise, as cancer touches everyone, it seems. It is insidious and cold. But it will not win. It.will.not.win.
Magic still enters my life, as it always does. Yesterday, I had my aura photographed. I resisted for a while, joking that it would probably photograph black, so what's the point. Yet something compelled me to do it, and what happened next even surprised the photographer. Most people see red or orange when they can see my aura, yet the photograph revealed a different color: chartreuse. The description for that color was as follows: Energy, sparkle, creator from joy, explosive creator, bubbly energy, The Healer. I felt immediate peace. I am in my Mom Mode, and the healing is what I need to be focused on these next few months. The photographer said she rarely sees that color, but I wasn't very surprised. My child has a rare lymphoma and it's up to me to help him, with whatever healing gifts I have.
So my focus for the next few months is taking care of him and my work. I have canceled all my workshops and events, and am keeping my writing to what I can handle, which is the bare minimum. This forces me to be in the moment, a practice I have been cultivating for years. It helps. The next five minutes, the next few moments, the next few breaths. It makes the rest less scary. Last night, as he was not feeling well, I rubbed my son's back. Underneath I felt a very strong core. My senses have been on hyper alert, so I lingered there to make sure of what I was experiencing. It was there. I know he will overcome this, and his prognosis is good. My life has certainly changed, and definitely not in the way I expected. His life is being transformed, as is mine. The lessons we will both learn will no doubt enhance us in many ways. Our story is one of many who go through similar and worse, and the journey continues. Thank you for reading. And for caring.
Wednesday, September 19, 2018
Rolling with the Punches
Long time, no blog! Apologies, friends. I blog for Patheos weekly, and between work and life, not much is left between. This blog is to catch you up on the In Between. Not that I think you are waiting with bated breath for my next blog installment here, but I do feel an obligation to record what is going on, in between seasons.
When we last left our story, I had finished up a conference or two. It's been a great year of reaping many seeds planted last year. If I write in a harvest metaphor, it's because we are in Harvest Season, and are about to celebrate the second of three harvest festivals in the Wheel of the Year. I take each celebration as a pause, to reflect and review what is happening in my life.
This year is not turning out the way I had thought it would. Not that it's a bad thing, but there have been so many twists and hairpin turns, and almost non-stop planetary chaos. I spend lots of time just catching my breath, focusing on being in the moment, centering and grounding. It has been a challenge, my friends.
My youngest moved to this area and has been dealing with health issues. As a mom, this affects me greatly. It's an excellent reminder to not take health for granted, nor time with your loved ones. He is slowly on the road to recovery, but it has been a challenge on so many levels.
I've written more than I have ever have in my life, on a more consistent basis. I feel like I am finding my voice, and have a wee but lovely following. To say I am grateful about this is an understatement.
I have shed things which no longer serve me, in advance of the trees. It feels scary yet good, to hone in on what means the most to me. It has become my mantra, in a way: family, friendships, work, writing, words, poetry, community. All have woven strong threads in my blanket of life, and symbolizes what remains.
My spiritual practice has deepened, and I am looking forward to strengthening my connection to Brigid via a retreat I will attend next month in Philadelphia. To be out of my usual comfort zone is something I genuinely look forward to, and I can't wait to tell you all about it.
I have been questioning my path, as recently as today, and as always, the Universe delivered. A lovely friend came by and reminded me of my purpose here. Building community, helping, healing, writing, teaching. I am humbled by the timeliness and clarity of the message.
One other thing has been made crystal clear to me: when magic is part of your life (whatever you call magic, or whatever it means to you) you feel a certain sureness and flow in your life. When life seems crazy and off-kilter (as it can be, especially this year) always return to center and do what you do best. Whether it be ritual, candle magic, meditation, honoring your ancestors, communing with your deities or beyond, it will remind you why you're here. And that is very satisfying indeed.
When we last left our story, I had finished up a conference or two. It's been a great year of reaping many seeds planted last year. If I write in a harvest metaphor, it's because we are in Harvest Season, and are about to celebrate the second of three harvest festivals in the Wheel of the Year. I take each celebration as a pause, to reflect and review what is happening in my life.
This year is not turning out the way I had thought it would. Not that it's a bad thing, but there have been so many twists and hairpin turns, and almost non-stop planetary chaos. I spend lots of time just catching my breath, focusing on being in the moment, centering and grounding. It has been a challenge, my friends.
My youngest moved to this area and has been dealing with health issues. As a mom, this affects me greatly. It's an excellent reminder to not take health for granted, nor time with your loved ones. He is slowly on the road to recovery, but it has been a challenge on so many levels.
I've written more than I have ever have in my life, on a more consistent basis. I feel like I am finding my voice, and have a wee but lovely following. To say I am grateful about this is an understatement.
I have shed things which no longer serve me, in advance of the trees. It feels scary yet good, to hone in on what means the most to me. It has become my mantra, in a way: family, friendships, work, writing, words, poetry, community. All have woven strong threads in my blanket of life, and symbolizes what remains.
My spiritual practice has deepened, and I am looking forward to strengthening my connection to Brigid via a retreat I will attend next month in Philadelphia. To be out of my usual comfort zone is something I genuinely look forward to, and I can't wait to tell you all about it.
I have been questioning my path, as recently as today, and as always, the Universe delivered. A lovely friend came by and reminded me of my purpose here. Building community, helping, healing, writing, teaching. I am humbled by the timeliness and clarity of the message.
One other thing has been made crystal clear to me: when magic is part of your life (whatever you call magic, or whatever it means to you) you feel a certain sureness and flow in your life. When life seems crazy and off-kilter (as it can be, especially this year) always return to center and do what you do best. Whether it be ritual, candle magic, meditation, honoring your ancestors, communing with your deities or beyond, it will remind you why you're here. And that is very satisfying indeed.
Thursday, August 2, 2018
Lammasing
I know, Lammasing isn't probably a word. I like to make words into verbs. Lammasing seems appropriate for this time of year.
Last night, I baked two loaves of bread. Not a huge deal, you might think. For me, it was. I rarely bake, and have relegated most of my cooking to special occasions. This act of baking was special, as I was acknowledging the meaning of Lammas for me. This celebration may be about first harvests, but it's also about loss, evaluating and moving ahead.
As memories pop up on Facebook, I noted that on this day last year, I felt the first stirrings of Autumn, Not yet, not yet! I love summer, and have enjoyed mine. Yet part of me does feel a thrill of anticipation about Autumn. It's a magical time in the mountains, where I am very lucky to live. Not only is the scenery spectacular, but your body can feel the rhythm of the planet. If you listen closely enough.
I was pleased to note I felt the same stirrings two years in a row. This tells my heart that this is where I am meant to be, and this is the path I should be on. I am in tune with my surroundings, the seasons and nature. The loss is noted, and absorbed. I'm at peace with it. I don't resist, and I don't dwell on that loss. I can't stop nature, so I appreciate and acknowledge it.
The bread I made was a culmination of my mental review of the year. Evaluating. What had I accomplished? What did I want to accomplish? What was I working towards? Summer solstice was all about hitting the reset button for me. Here we are, a few months later, and so much has happened.
I have deepened my commitment to my work. It is not only my job, it is the core of me. I build community, I connect people, I build bridges between groups, and I help create with the lovely people who come to our store to buy things to help their lives, need help with problems, or merely want a hug after a bad day.
I have my writings in three books. Small pieces, but it suits me and my pace. A book has been bubbling in my head for decades and it will come out when it is ready. I have learned never to rush my projects or my writing. When I write, it is like a waterfall that pours over me, and the words come out until I feel I have written what I need to convey. It's a lovely feeling, so very satisfying.
I have given workshops and have more ahead of me on the calendar. Again, small gatherings, slower pace, and it suits me. I love the look of excitement when someone tells me they can attend my workshop, and are looking forward to it.
More projects are in the work, and I will share them as time permits. For now, I want to wish you all a good first harvest. I hope your sense of loss is miniimal, your evaluation of the year so far is comforting, and the months ahead fill you with excitement. For a holiday I once mostly ignored, Lammas has become quite the celebration instead. I hope you enjoy Lammasing.
Last night, I baked two loaves of bread. Not a huge deal, you might think. For me, it was. I rarely bake, and have relegated most of my cooking to special occasions. This act of baking was special, as I was acknowledging the meaning of Lammas for me. This celebration may be about first harvests, but it's also about loss, evaluating and moving ahead.
As memories pop up on Facebook, I noted that on this day last year, I felt the first stirrings of Autumn, Not yet, not yet! I love summer, and have enjoyed mine. Yet part of me does feel a thrill of anticipation about Autumn. It's a magical time in the mountains, where I am very lucky to live. Not only is the scenery spectacular, but your body can feel the rhythm of the planet. If you listen closely enough.
I was pleased to note I felt the same stirrings two years in a row. This tells my heart that this is where I am meant to be, and this is the path I should be on. I am in tune with my surroundings, the seasons and nature. The loss is noted, and absorbed. I'm at peace with it. I don't resist, and I don't dwell on that loss. I can't stop nature, so I appreciate and acknowledge it.
The bread I made was a culmination of my mental review of the year. Evaluating. What had I accomplished? What did I want to accomplish? What was I working towards? Summer solstice was all about hitting the reset button for me. Here we are, a few months later, and so much has happened.
I have deepened my commitment to my work. It is not only my job, it is the core of me. I build community, I connect people, I build bridges between groups, and I help create with the lovely people who come to our store to buy things to help their lives, need help with problems, or merely want a hug after a bad day.
I have my writings in three books. Small pieces, but it suits me and my pace. A book has been bubbling in my head for decades and it will come out when it is ready. I have learned never to rush my projects or my writing. When I write, it is like a waterfall that pours over me, and the words come out until I feel I have written what I need to convey. It's a lovely feeling, so very satisfying.
I have given workshops and have more ahead of me on the calendar. Again, small gatherings, slower pace, and it suits me. I love the look of excitement when someone tells me they can attend my workshop, and are looking forward to it.
More projects are in the work, and I will share them as time permits. For now, I want to wish you all a good first harvest. I hope your sense of loss is miniimal, your evaluation of the year so far is comforting, and the months ahead fill you with excitement. For a holiday I once mostly ignored, Lammas has become quite the celebration instead. I hope you enjoy Lammasing.
Thursday, July 5, 2018
Solsticing
Solsticing! Have you been doing it?
Summer is my favorite time of year, and this year seems a bit more special. I had mentioned in the past when a deity calls (http://www.patheos.com/blogs/witchindeed/2018/05/when-a-deity-calls/) and a new one has popped up in my life: Aine. Pronounced Ayne or Awn-ya, depending on where you look. I'd never heard of before, and she crossed my path in my readings about midsummer. Before Midsummer even began.
When a deity finds me, they tend to be pretty persistent. I will notice them everywhere. I was led to set aside a space for her, decorating a small table with my flower crown, candles and assorted crystals. She even showed up in a reading I did for myself. I hear you, Aine.
My message? Celebrate Solstice. Use this season, your favorite season, and get your work done. Ah yes, my work that is never ending. Not just my day job, although that is my calling. My work, the reason I was put here. To help others, to help heal, to help guide. As with other deities that show up in no uncertain terms, things soon started happening.
As one friend remarked, "You've been busy solsticing!" I have. One event leads to another, and I have celebrated with fellow women where our being Queens was celebrated. Rarely have I felt so supported and cherished as that evening, with friends and relative strangers. Onward to an art walk, where I helped lead ritual and was told that I brought peace and contentment to another with my words. Full moon ritual under a cloudy sky with fireflies and frogs croaking. We drank mugwort tea and called forth Aradia. I helped build community, was part of community, and wove people together in a cozy blanket. Soon after, I helped lead a Midsummer ritual for Mother Grove, as we danced under a sunny sky and lush trees.
What next? Still enjoying this season of warmth. My bones cannot get enough. I felt like I stayed frozen until May. Being outdoors as much as possible. Being full of gratitude.
And then?
Scheduling workshops, formulating plans. I am being called on a journey, to lead others on their journeys. More details as this unfolds.
I hope you solstice. Even if you don't like heat, enjoy cool mornings or evenings. Watch the sun rise or the sun set. Breathe in the scent of summer. The year is whirling by, and soon it will be cool all the time. Let the warmth soak deep within you. Celebrate anything and everything with friends and family. Savor the moments. That is what solsticing is about.
Summer is my favorite time of year, and this year seems a bit more special. I had mentioned in the past when a deity calls (http://www.patheos.com/blogs/witchindeed/2018/05/when-a-deity-calls/) and a new one has popped up in my life: Aine. Pronounced Ayne or Awn-ya, depending on where you look. I'd never heard of before, and she crossed my path in my readings about midsummer. Before Midsummer even began.
When a deity finds me, they tend to be pretty persistent. I will notice them everywhere. I was led to set aside a space for her, decorating a small table with my flower crown, candles and assorted crystals. She even showed up in a reading I did for myself. I hear you, Aine.
My message? Celebrate Solstice. Use this season, your favorite season, and get your work done. Ah yes, my work that is never ending. Not just my day job, although that is my calling. My work, the reason I was put here. To help others, to help heal, to help guide. As with other deities that show up in no uncertain terms, things soon started happening.
As one friend remarked, "You've been busy solsticing!" I have. One event leads to another, and I have celebrated with fellow women where our being Queens was celebrated. Rarely have I felt so supported and cherished as that evening, with friends and relative strangers. Onward to an art walk, where I helped lead ritual and was told that I brought peace and contentment to another with my words. Full moon ritual under a cloudy sky with fireflies and frogs croaking. We drank mugwort tea and called forth Aradia. I helped build community, was part of community, and wove people together in a cozy blanket. Soon after, I helped lead a Midsummer ritual for Mother Grove, as we danced under a sunny sky and lush trees.
What next? Still enjoying this season of warmth. My bones cannot get enough. I felt like I stayed frozen until May. Being outdoors as much as possible. Being full of gratitude.
And then?
Scheduling workshops, formulating plans. I am being called on a journey, to lead others on their journeys. More details as this unfolds.
I hope you solstice. Even if you don't like heat, enjoy cool mornings or evenings. Watch the sun rise or the sun set. Breathe in the scent of summer. The year is whirling by, and soon it will be cool all the time. Let the warmth soak deep within you. Celebrate anything and everything with friends and family. Savor the moments. That is what solsticing is about.
Sunday, April 15, 2018
Conferences!
So much has happened since my last blog entry!
The anthology in which my essay resides (My Wandering Freedom) was published and is available and on Amazon. It's titled, My Wandering Uterus. I remain in awe. Many of you kindly purchased the book and gave me feedback, which was lovely. Apparently I made many of you cry. My work here is done! Well, not really. I am thankful my words are in print, and that I got to share my journeys to Ireland with you. I tend to be a very private person, so to share something so intensely personal was quite a journey in and of itself for me. You've made it a bit less painful. Many thanks!
I attended the Sacred Space conference in Maryland a few weeks ago. and presented my workshop on Building Community Among Solitary Practitioners. I have presented this workshop before, tailoring it to the communities I was presenting it to, in different settings. I was actually happy my workshop was scheduled for the last day, as it gave me time to really experience the conference and soak it in. First rule of Community Building? Have a great conference. And it was, full stop. One of my passions has always been community building. I have always been a steady networker, because I find people fascinating, and love connecting those with similar interests together. This workshop builds upon that concept, with ways to get us all connected, even if someone prefers to remain introverted and non-social (I have those days myself).
The attendees of the workshop were lovely, contributing and brainstorming about ways to connect with community. What I heard was, "life is busy!" but underneath, a true longing for connection. Happy to say that several people there connected, with plans to meet up again in the future.
A few weeks later, I was pleased to learn this workshop was also accepted for the Mystic South conference in July. Not sure where this road is leading me, except to spreading the word about community building, and how we an do that among our groups. There are solitary practitioners in all areas of life, no matter the practice, so it's a joy for me to help in building community with some ideas and tips to further that along.
If you had asked me a year ago about giving workshops, I probably would have laughed. Yet I am thankful for the opportunities afforded me, and look forward to more in my future.
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